1 post tagged “cheating”

I feel like i'm going to throw up.  That, or this is the feeling of deep regret.  The lack of inner strength, and mostly, the lack of love.

Desire is something that is hard to contain.  Once you desire - may it be a person, an object or an ideal, it's hard to walk away from, especially if desire is fuled on both ends.  Temptation leads to desire... and... leaves you hurt, confused and yet, wanting even more.

"... say that you love me" he told me as a million thoughts rushed into my mind.  A lot of the thoughts saying "no, you love jon, you love him so much that this should NOT be happening" yet its as if my mind and my heart has been waiting for this moment, as if we both knew that this was the inevitable and that it was just bound to happen.  Yet, as he said that statement to me, my heart screamed it, but my mouth dare not say it, for saying it makes it real...

... in my heart, I said it as loud as I could possibly say "I love you".