2 posts tagged “love”

chances.  first one, then two, three... and the cycle, goes on and on.  one more chance, one more fuck-up and i'm cutting the cord, closing the door, blocking-from-my-cell-phone you forever.

many things going on in my life as of late, it's all very maddening, tiring and beautiful at the same time.  i'm learning as i have to, dealing accordingly. 

it was today, though.

i finally fell in love.

The world is in retrograde.

Perhaps it was the catch and release of a foreign anti-body trying to fit in a world that it could never adapt to.

Smoking.  Drinking.  Moving out and hasty decisions, it's as if people forgot and became something different.  Perhaps we're all the same, just amplified.  We've only just started daylight savings time, but does that necessarily mean that things weren't meant to be, that its just bad timing? 

With everything thats gone on in the last couple of days, it was actually.... perfect.

He (as in, the boy, not the foreign anti-body) came right when I needed him the most.  Even if hes gone (momentarily?  forever?) I needed it.  My cure.  My Big to my Carrie, my key to my lock...

He could navigate through my complicated design.  I hate him, I fear for him, I worry, I... with him, im in a state of somewhere between waking and sleeping.

Perhaps this time, it's love.